Excited the weekend is almost here!!

Well its Friday and i am really excited that this week is finally over. Well almost!

Yesterday i went out to my car to go home from work and when i got to my car i had a note on my car that had a map of the employee parking with a letter reading that i needed to park in employee parking and would not want to get written up for being LAZY!!!

Well needless to say i was pretty furious that someone left a note on my car. And i was only about 20 spots out of employee parking. (due to the fact that my DR doesn't want me to walk that far into work due to my High blood pressure! and also that she said no more stairs. So i parked just a little closer than everyone else. but still had to walk all the way into work and my feet and legs hurt by the time i got in.

So i decided that i just really needed to go home instead of storm back into work and yell at the person who did it. which is what i wanted to do! but knew it would be best not to! so i went on my way home and due to hormones i let a few tears out because i felt like someone thought i was being lazy! and all i wanted to say was i am DUE IN 16 DAYS!!! i don't think that i am being lazy! I mean most people are not working at 37 almost 38 weeks. they are home on the couch resting and relaxing for the events that are about to take place. But No i am at work trying to earn extra money for our family so that when i am on disability (where i don't get my whole check) we will not suffer so much! I want it to be a stress less transition. So all that probably raised my blood pressure so much! i went home and vented to dez about it and then my mom! so i felt a little better. My original way i was going to deal with it was send out an email or find the person who left it on my car and just hand it back to them and see what they had to say!

But after all of my venting and sleeping on it i just decided to take it to my HR manager and my department and ask them what they thought about it. everyone was SHOCKED that someone didn't know that was my car due to the fact that i am the ONLY one with TEXAS plates. everyone else is SOUTH CAROLINA!!! SO that is mainly why i felt that someone was attacking me for being lazy and not just thinking an employee is being lazy.

at the end of all of that the HR person is just going to talk to the person she thinks it is and let them know that i am needing to park closer than i do right now and that it should be allowed!

SO i have calmed down a little bit! from it all. but man things like that take a toll on you way more than when your not pregnant!

I am ready for a relaxing weekend of not doing anything. well the girls from work are throwing me a shower on Saturday but that should not be so stressful! then i plan on relaxing the rest of the weekend.

It really has felt like it was Friday for the past 4 days! i could not figure it out!!!

I plan on sleeping A LOT this weekend. If i can?!?!?!
I am so grateful for DEZ he has been so amazing through this whole process! he cleans when he can and cooks EVERY night and takes the dogs out all night long without me helping most of the time! He really lets me relax and get the rest i need. he brings me whatever i need and takes care of my crazy requests without batting an eye! he seems to just understand that i am having a tough time doing certain things and does not mind helping.

I don't think i could ever repay him or make it up to him!

I love this man so much and am so lucky that he is the one that i get to spend the rest of my life with and raise our family with!

Hope everyone has a wonderful weekend!!!

Sleep Please...

I have not been sleeping much at all! And the fact that i am still working doesn't help the matter either. I don't want to quit work too early because with all the doctor bills we are about to have we could really use the money! The only reason is because my insurance while it covers everything has a super HIGH deductible!!! Mainly because the company does not take any money out of our check to pay for it! So i guess in one sense i can't complain! But on the other hand i wish we had a different health care ! Desmond does not have coverage at his work so we are both under this plan.

I mean i am grateful that we have it don't get me wrong. our bills would be much higher without it.

But back to the sleep thing. I have become very uncomfortable more so each night. I just toss and turn and get up about 7 times i think i counted last night. And some nights i have to get up and drink a glass of milk because my heart burn is so bad i can't lay down or it could be reflex. I am sure its both.

So last night I kept waking up and could not get to sleep. When i finally got up for the last time it was about 5:00 in the morning. and i get up about 6:30 to start getting ready for work so we can leave by 7:30. well at five i was able to go into a deep sleep and i did not hear my alarm because my body i guess just woke up and i looked at the clock and it was 7:32. OOOOOPPPSS! I mean i was getting some good rest there for a little bit! But of course after jumping out of bed and jumping in the shower and running around trying to get ready i am once again back to sleepy! I take about 3 different vitamins everyday! prenatal, calcium, and iron ( i was a little low on iron at about the 30th week and they recommended i take a supplement and it would also help with my energy!) well i don't have an iron problem anymore but i am not any less tired!

I am just worn out! We are at the end of the tunnel and i feel like we are running towards it at a very fast pase but at the same time feels like this week has drug on and on!

For some reason i feel like it should have been Friday about 3 days ago! I think part of the thing is that we are just so ready for the next chapter of our lives that the last few weeks will just be a slow process! but we are willing to wait and have our wonderful baby in our arms when it is time!

I just need to think about possibly stopping work before i get too overwhelmed with it.

Well my mom is coming into town on January 22nd and she is going to stay till the 27th!!! So we are hoping the wants to arrive on time at least! if not we will just be glad to spend time with her!
i wish we lived closer to her and my family! i miss them so much!

Well i really am blessed even though i sit here and complain about not sleeping and just being tired. I mean who usually just has that to complain about in pregnancy! I am truly blessed that she has been really easy on me and i am so blessed that i have not had any other issues so far! I mean i really feel bad complaining when others have it so much worse during the last few weeks. I really should not complain! so i am going to just try and be grateful for everything i am not going through at this time and thank God for going so easy on me!

We are ready for our little angel and can't wait to see her beautiful face and love on her!!!!

Its so amazing how much love we have for this little girl we have not seen but our hearts are already hers! and i know that she has already stolen the hearts of many others and will continue to do so through her whole life!!! she is such a blessing to our family and i can't believe that we are so blessed with her! She is a dream come true!!!!

and when i think of how much i love this little girl all the other complaints are completely forgotten and seem so silly to even mention!

words of wisdom and comfort...

Tonight i got an email from a friend who is also expecting. She emailed me about my last blog and really opened my eyes to somethings and gave me great incite into giving birth and some of the things that could possibly come with induction and some of the risks.

I am so grateful for her input and the fact that she took the time to help me understand what i am so incredible clueless about. It really opened my eyes to the fact that i am anxious and nervous excited and just really want our baby girl in our arms.

Bottom line is the things that she told me about inducing before Ava and my body are ready unless of course she is late are not things that i want to go through nor risk for our little girl! i read the email to Des and he agreed. We are excited and can't wait for our little girl to get here but we know that she will be here when she is good and ready! God knows when and has a plan for the day she is to be in our arms and that is not meant for us to decide.

our eyes were open to that tonight when we read about some of the things like the fact that it could be more painful throwing your body into labor instead of it doing it on its own. and that sometimes it can lead to a c/section which we would also like to avoid if possible!

I know she is just as anxious and excited to have her little baby boy in her arms too so she knows the feelings i am having and it makes it so much easier to know that someone who is in my position telling me that it is worth the wait!!! also i just had a thought that what if the doctors are a week off of my due date and she is not ready. i know that she could survive at this point and be fine but i would not want her to have to go into intensive care because we took her too early! I want God to let us know when she is ready to be here! We have to put our faith in the fact that he knows best and he is the one who created her and knows when she is ready to venture out into the world. We are just so blessed that He has given her to us to look after and take care of. She is a wonderful gift and We know that it is nothing to be rushed.

This makes me think back to stories in the Bible about people who did not wait on God and while things did not always turn out bad there was clear signs of the way things would have been and how much better things would have been had they waited on God. So that is what we are going to do is just give all our anxiousness and worries to God and know that He has full control over what is going to happen and we are going to be blessed with a wonderful baby girl in a few weeks no matter what time she arrives!!!

Hope everyone has a wonderful night! Thank you so much Belinda for all of your wonderful advice!!!

Not far enough yet but lots of possitive things to report!!!!!

So when i saw the doctor today she listened to Ava's heartbeat and everything sounded fantastic. It was much more clear. She checked me and she said that my Cervix is still not all the way open. But she said that you never know what can happen. she said that she had a patient come in one afternoon and she was about where i was (her cervix was not all the way open) and the next morning when she came in the girl had gone into labor that night and delivered the next day! so she said just keep your hopes up cause you never know. she also said that at 39 weeks we will see how far my cervix is and if it is open all the way she said that we would talk about maybe inducing around the due date. and if not then she will let me go no more than one week past her due date! so that is encouraging! I am hoping that she decides to come before that time but on or around the time would be awesome too! I would really like for my mom to be here for it! and if we can get a date set to induce we might be able to get her out here!!! that would be a wish come true! so everyone keep us in your prayers!!!!

Other than that everything is looking normal. I gained only 2lbs which of course is more than i would like to gain but whatever i need to do at this point. My blood pressure was a little high but just the top number. she said that she checked everything else and it is not pre-eclamsia (spelling???) so that is good news. she said just to relax and start taking the elevator from now on at work and at the apartment.

No complaints just hoping for some progression in the next week or so! we are getting very anxious! We can't wait to have her in our arms and love on her!!!

37 weeks... we are getting anxious to have our little Ava

Tomorrow is my next appointment! We are so close! we are so anxious to meet our little angel!!!!

here is what is going on this week with Ava:

Your pregnancy: 37 weeks

See the big picture

How your baby's growing:

Congratulations — your baby is full term! This means that if your baby arrives now, his lungs should be fully mature and ready to adjust to life outside the womb, even though your due date is still three weeks away.

Your baby weighs 6 1/3 pounds and measures a bit over 19 inches, head to heel (like a stalk of Swiss chard). Many babies have a full head of hair at birth, with locks from 1/2 inch to 1 1/2 inches long. But don't be surprised if your baby's hair isn't the same color as yours. Dark-haired couples are sometimes thrown for a loop when their children come out as blonds or redheads, and fair-haired couples have been surprised by Elvis look-alikes. And then, of course, some babies sport only peach fuzz.

How your life's changing:

Braxton Hicks contractions may be coming more frequently now and may last longer and be more uncomfortable. You might also notice an increase in vaginal discharge. If you see some "bloody show" (mucus tinged with a tiny amount of blood) in the toilet or in your undies, labor is probably a few days away — or less. (If you have heavier spotting or bleeding, call your caregiver immediately.) Also be sure to ask your caregiver about the results of your Group B strep culture. That way, if the result isn't yet on your chart when you get to the hospital or birth center, you'll be able to give the staff there a timely heads-up if you need antibiotics.

It may be harder than ever to get comfortable enough to sleep well at night. If you can, take it easy through the day — this may be your last chance to do so for quite a while. Keep monitoring your baby's movements, too, and let your caregiver know immediately if you notice a decrease. Though her quarters are getting cozy, she should still be as active as before.

While you're sleeping, you're likely to have some intense dreams. Anxiety both about labor and about becoming a parent can fuel a lot of strange flights of unconscious fancy.

Getting ready for the big day...

Today I decided to start getting our bags ready for the hospital.

I started with what Ava will need at the hospital. I packed her going home outfit! and her Blanket we are taking her home in. They are so cute. Of course i had to wash all of the stuff first. So i just decided to go ahead and wash all of her clothes and blankets so that we would have them all clean when we need them. So i have been doing laundry ALL day! And having to make sure i did not wash something that was suppose to be hand washed. We only had about 4 things that need to be hand washed so it was not bad at all!

I think we have just about everything ready.
I have boiled the binkies and put her baby book in the bag for the hospital to put her foot prints and hand prints in. I have put the flip camera in the bag and am charging the camera for the hospital. but i will probably use it before then. But it will be charged! we plan on taking a lot of pictures and some video while we are at the hospital. Now we wont be recording the birth or anything like that! but we will have a video of some of her first things and pictures from her birth.

I also started packing my bag as well. i packed only comfortable things because as much as i would like to look cute and wear something really nice i know that all i will be concerned with is my baby girl and being comfortable when we leave the hospital.

I feel like i will be forgetting things and i will never remember it all. i guess it is a good thing that we don't live but about 10 minutes from the hospital so if we do forget anything then it will not be too hard to get it.

I have heard that this is the best hospital to deliver at and that i will have a great experience there.

I think we are almost set up for our little girl. we still have a few things i know that i need to get before she gets here.

One is a few sheets for the bed and some more wipes.
but other than that we are all set and so ready for our little girl to be here!!! time seems like it is going by slow but so fast! hard to explain. But i am sure that a lot of people know what i mean! all i can think about is holding her and seeing des with his little daughter. and loving on her!

Not long now! we are so close! everyone pray that she is not a late girl and wants to be on time or even early!

Happy New Year!

Well Dez and I did not do much of anything for new years this year! Mainly because I don't feel like doing much of anything at all! we just hung out at the house!

I was so hungry from work when i got home that night and Dez was so wonderful and he had made a homemade Pizza. It was SO very good!

I took a bath like i do every night when i get home. I think that is my way to relax and feel comfortable when i am home. Then after all that we just watched movies. We watched one of our new favorite movies "burn after reading" it is such a good movie!!! Then of course we went to our DVR (which is the best thing ever) and watched all the shows we had recorded the previous week. those included our normal shows we love to watch... 48 hours mystery, First 48, Baby Story, 90210, any CSI, And some true stories of mob life and all the old mob groups that use to be and still are. Those are very interesting.

After that i fell alseep and was out for a little while and i ended up waking up right at 11:54 and was looking for Dez. He was taking the dogs out for about the 100th time that night and I was worried he wasn't sure what time it was! But he walked in with 3 minutes to spare. And we watched the rest of the ball drop from NYC and Kissed at New Years! and then he opened some bubbly for him and a non bubbly one for me! and we toasted and took some drinks.

By then i was awake again! And we ended up staying up till about 3 in the morning and then going to bed!

The Next Day We did not get out of bed until about 12:00 (well i got out of bed several times. Due to the fact that i get up to use the bathroom EVERY hour and a half just about!) but was able to really sleep and get some good rest! That was very much needed because I am still working. And it wears me out during the week.

New Years Day I woke up and cooked us some BLTs and Tomato soup and we just relaxed on the couch and did nothing till about 5:00 when we headed over to Cam and Amanda's for dinner. It was so good. Chad , Michelle, Cam , Amanda, Donna, Clint, Shawn, and a few others were there! we did not stay long because Dez was not feeling well. SO i took him home and gave him a Thera Flu and we watched a little TV and went to bed!

But all in all it was a great new years eve and day! And thinking we are about 3 Weeks away from seeing and holding our little girl brings me so much joy i can barley contain myself!!!!

hope everyone had a wonderful and safe new year!!

Happy 2009!!! Its going to be a great year!!!

Ava will be here so very soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!